Things I’d like to tell you

I’d like to tell you all about
how ordinary the usual days are,
how easily my mind drifts when it gets a whiff of that familiar scent,
and how child-like happy I feel when I have a plan.

I’d like to tell you all about
how my day was while I hear about yours,
how some things scare me than most others,
and how easily I drift off into slumber.

I’d like to hear all about
how you’ve come to be who you are,
how easily or not you can trust,
and how naturally does the force of love affect you.

I’d like to hear all about
how & if you fear,
how much you want out of life,
and how free you are from thoughts.

I’d like to tell you far more, just how I’d like to hear far more from you.
But, till we settle down, I will pen down the things I’d like to tell you.

Awaiting this horizon

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What’s in store?

I have reached a stage where most of my friends and classmates have started getting engaged or married altogether. I feel relieved to know that I was the youngest in all my classes and that I don’t have to face the pressure to get married back at home as well. Though, I’m sure that day is only nearing with every passing second and more than I dread it, I’m afraid it will be time and I still won’t have found love the second time.

Do I really want to fall in love again?

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There were pictures all across my timeline; those really happy and lovely ones you live for. They were all either engaged or married and happiness was spreading like cholera everywhere I turned my eyes. I was smiling too taking in every detail slowly. You may call this old school in today’s age but, I always dreamed of getting married too, to someone who would always put me first and who no doubt would love me for who I am, as I would love him. It was then that this thought struck me and no, I wasn’t being negative. It was reality in its own way. What if I do not meet someone like that? What if I do not marry? What if I am still hung up?  What if I am alone? What if…

I kept thinking of ‘what if’ and grew sombre. I’m sure there are few if not many like me out there and holding on to hope is a task sometimes. While I was in the midst of all these thoughts as if by fate I fell upon these words. “What comes easy won’t always last and what will last won’t come easy.” Words strung like this have kept me going and once again words like these have kept me from falling.

 I am going to wait it out some more for whatever is in store. Till then, I keep reading more lines like these.

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“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.” – C.S. Lewis